Okay, winter, enough already! It is suppose to drop to 6 below zero tonight and maybe only get to 19 tomorrow??? I can't take it anymore-I need sunshine and warmth. I am already depressed, lonely, and have nothing coming up to look forward to. My close girlfriend was just diagnosed with breast cancer, the partner I thought was in it with me for the long haul bails and I am just flat out tired of it all.
I am tired of having to be strong. I am tired of being the only parent in my sons life-not to say I don't adore him, but-I am tired of doing the homework, brushing teeth, reading bedtime stories, getting him to bed, getting him up, getting him on the bus, doing the laundry, shoveling the driveway, taking the garbage out, cleaning the house, fixing anything that breaks, grocery shopping, taking the car in for oil changes, making the beds, vacuuming, recycling, feeding the dog, going to work to make ends meet, paying the bills and then starting all over again the next day.
I know, I know, get in line, right?? But dammit, I would just like there to be somebody at the end of day that is there to say, "I love you, honey and you make my world worth living. Let's grow old together, okay?"
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Beautiful Morning
The large flakes of snow are coming at a fairly rapid pace this morning. My mom always used to say that when the flakes got larger, the snow was about done. I am not so sure anymore...maybe it was just her way of making me watch the snow more closely.
I am planning my vegetable garden today. I am thinking carrots, kale, lettuce, zucchini, watermelon (for Rex), acorn squash, cucumbers, pumpkins, tomatoes (a couple of varieties), green beans, basil, flat leaf parsley, red peppers, and maybe a pea variety-oh and chives. My ex in-laws have a nice rototiller and have offered to turn up my plots-one of which is an old bed and has been used for compost. My plan is to lay down flour bags (the 50 lb double layered paper ones from the bakery where I work)that have been cut open. I will mulch over the top of all and cut through it where I want to plant. This way I can create nice walking paths between the two sides of the bed. The cukes, squash, zucchini, melons, and pumpkins will be planted in mounds of straw. Only one of each plant. The tomatoes are being hung in 5 gallon buckets from an old clothesline t-bar. (MNmom gave me this idea!)
I hope to be able to paste many pictures of this endeavor and that this all goes as planned-if not, well I will learn some for next year!
I am planning my vegetable garden today. I am thinking carrots, kale, lettuce, zucchini, watermelon (for Rex), acorn squash, cucumbers, pumpkins, tomatoes (a couple of varieties), green beans, basil, flat leaf parsley, red peppers, and maybe a pea variety-oh and chives. My ex in-laws have a nice rototiller and have offered to turn up my plots-one of which is an old bed and has been used for compost. My plan is to lay down flour bags (the 50 lb double layered paper ones from the bakery where I work)that have been cut open. I will mulch over the top of all and cut through it where I want to plant. This way I can create nice walking paths between the two sides of the bed. The cukes, squash, zucchini, melons, and pumpkins will be planted in mounds of straw. Only one of each plant. The tomatoes are being hung in 5 gallon buckets from an old clothesline t-bar. (MNmom gave me this idea!)
I hope to be able to paste many pictures of this endeavor and that this all goes as planned-if not, well I will learn some for next year!
Friday, February 19, 2010
Spring is Coming!
You know that smell of Spring? Well, even though it is still cold out-I swear I smelled Spring in the air today. Spring in my step-indeed! I breathed it in with every breath as I walked through the woods. The river was rippling a little louder, too-begging for canoes and kayaks.
I had said on my facebook post that one of my chickens had hopped out of the coop and yesterday when I got home, ALL OF THE CHICKENS were out and wandering about in driveway. Like them, I cannot wait for the snow to be gone. I am also looking so forward to lighting the fire rings and having a WELCOME SPRING party. Music, wine, good food, hot fires, mmmmm.
Keeping me busy this weekend:
Planning the vegetable garden-LOVE that Seed Savers Exchange is just north of town!
"Lessons from Cancer College" A play written by my friend Prof. Nancy Barry about her year of chemo and cancer and teaching. Being performed by Kristin Underwood at ArtHaus in Decorah.
Dinner with friends on Saturday night.
Yeahhhh....let the weekend begin!
I had said on my facebook post that one of my chickens had hopped out of the coop and yesterday when I got home, ALL OF THE CHICKENS were out and wandering about in driveway. Like them, I cannot wait for the snow to be gone. I am also looking so forward to lighting the fire rings and having a WELCOME SPRING party. Music, wine, good food, hot fires, mmmmm.
Keeping me busy this weekend:
Planning the vegetable garden-LOVE that Seed Savers Exchange is just north of town!
"Lessons from Cancer College" A play written by my friend Prof. Nancy Barry about her year of chemo and cancer and teaching. Being performed by Kristin Underwood at ArtHaus in Decorah.
Dinner with friends on Saturday night.
Yeahhhh....let the weekend begin!
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