What is Grace?

So, my S.O. and I have broken off our relationship. I know it is for the best-as does he. Unfortunately, it had been the most incredible, most powerful, most sincere relationship I have ever experienced in my life. How does one go on from this?? How do you pick up the pieces and move forward? I would take this man back in a heartbeat if he were willing to be "all in" all the time, but how long does one wait for that to happen?? He has an entire OTHER life when he is not with me. It is so hard to be in this state of flux-the unknown, between trapeze bars...I love this man deeply with sincerity, but maybe it is just not our season. So hard.

So, with all that said, I am moving forward with new goals. And, I am opening myself to the possibility that all is perfect and all will be fine. Man, I am a good catch! Trying very hard to remember that and to live with grace and love in my heart always.

Good bye, Eddie Bruce. I love you.

Raptor Day

Today I scared away a Cooper's Hawk on my way to open the chicken coop. The darn thing was perched under the lean-to of the barn where the pigeon loft is located-smart bird. What I didn't know is that one of my landlady's quail was dead in the loft. When she went out to clean up this morning she came running back to the house shouting, "The Cooper's hawk is trapped in the pigeon loft." She is a licensed falconer and had been wanting to trap a Cooper's hawk for some time. Anyway, the pictures tell the story. It was just such a cool thing to be present to this moment today. The first picture is of my backyard area where the hawks perch-usually in the last poplar tree. I love my life!

New Year, New Paint, New Attitude, New Work

It was a great start to 2010. My S.O. came for a visit and stayed 4 nights. He did a great taping/painting job on my new office and the living room in "ambitious amber."

I read a wonderful horoscope that predicted that 2010 would be my year...I am sure one could interpret it differently, but why would I do that?? Anyway, it said to declutter my spaces-emotional, mental, and physical. So, I started with my home office.

The only new item that I purchased for the re-do was the paint. Curtains($3), rug($2),and art (.50 per framed piece, .10 per basket) all came from The Depot (my town's locally operated Good Will). I am so pleased with the result.

And, thanks to my S.O. who helped me follow through with my vision.

View out my office window.

Fabulous 70's curtains that inspired my room.


View as you come in.